My life, My experiences, My friends

the notebook...

2005-12-22T12:41:00.000-08:00

I am in DC right now..just saw a movie called "the notebook"...watch the movie if u get a chance..it was released in 2004...never seen a more beautiful love story...not to be missed...i havenot been regular on the blogs was just lazing around...dont go away a lot is yet to come...

another post...

2005-12-12T20:52:00.000-08:00

another day passed by quickly today...have my software life cycle final on the 14th..its an open book exam and have to read 16 research papers...man thats boring..the course is pure crap...it has no aim...for extra credit we have to read the 17th research paper and relate it to the laws of software evolution and the wonderful thing is that it is nowhere related to the laws...but since the paper was written by our professor herself it must be related in some i incomprehensible way that only her complex mind can imagine...man she loves the laws of software evolution...and leaves no chance to make us study it...and i simply hate those stupid laws because i cannot make sense from that...but i need the extra credit...coz in us my golden rule of passing exams has failed me...pages bharo content ki chinta mat karo...mid term main yahi soch ke question pe 10 page to likh diye but andar bakwas thi...socha ki shayad na padhe..waise bhi purani adaten jati kahan hai..but afsos usne das ke das page padhe underline kiya...and she gave me a wonderful b-....ab us b- ko correct karne ke liye firse wohi nasur tapak para hai...and once again i cannot understand any word of it...anyways i had a wonderful experience today...we have a masters student lounge jiske ander generally sab baith ke padhte hai...since many people were studying this after noon the school people surprised us...they sent a tray full of cookies and jars of cocia and apple cider coz they thought we might be hungry..and moreover the girl bringing this stuff was really beautiful...it felt pretty nice...there is one more rumor going around in the school..the undergraduate student workers (girls) in the mba program office have a bet going on between them...they are betting who sleeps with the maximum number of mba students in this semester and from what i heard the count has reached 6 by now...so all you mba aspirants out there now there is an extremely strong reason for doing an mba...i am thinking of transferring myself to the mba program to get such wonderful education... anyways came back in the evening...afzal came home...we planned to discuss the extra credit question but couldnt make the sense of it...afzal is from bangladesh...he did his bachelors from arizona and is doing his masters here...he is a pretty cool guy always relaxed...taking 5 courses this sem and plans to graduate in a year only...already received a job offer from deloitte 3 weeks ago...so finally we gave up...anyways parag ka blog padha..so remembered slcm ...beleive me this class is the classes in dce...infact its even worse...dce main to students sote the class main...but yahan to tichar hi so jati hai...bilkul golu style ki hai...in the beginning of semseter gave presentations to give to everybody....and when a person is giving a presentation she literally sleeps in the class...and snores too...apni hansi rokna bahut mushkil ho jata hai...in my class there is deepam...wo laptop pe baith ke preity zinta ki photo dekhta rahta hai ek ghanta... there is jeff who just like rina keeps on solving cross word puzzles..there is me who stares blankly at the wall muhn khol ke...man its pretty funny...anyways...gotta go gotta study the laws...long live MM Lehman...

not drunk any more...

2005-12-11T10:16:00.000-08:00

Anyways after drinking too much that day I slept for a long long time...woke up at 11....then slept again at 2...woke up at 6...as exams are getting over u can feel the excitment in the air...especially in the desi population..there faces are glowing for the simple reason that they are going home...they are smiling , jumping and most of all shopping...everybody is shopping like crazy...during thanks giving most of them went to san marcos to shop..san marcos has a lot of factory outlets like the ones on radisson road..a line forms in front of the mall at 2 in the morning...every one goes crazy at that time...i know people who have shopeed for around 500$ just gifts...but no body minds...coz they are going home though only for a month... for a month they will be near their family, they will have good food and they will relax...when i was in India main bhi sochta tha why do they come to india to enjoy and sab itne khush kyn dikhte hain...us din manan se yahi bat kar raha tha...ab pata laga why everybody is so happy...they will relax for a month...and after that back to the grind...most of the people know this is the last time they are going to spend a month with there families..after that nobody can go home for atleast 2 years coz of the h1b processing...just imagine coming back in january...standing on the airport and knowing you wont see those faces for a long long time...something just dies within you...i used to think this is all crap...but the day I left India...the last time I turned back to look at my family smiling and crying at the same time I knew this is all true...it is the price you pay for the education you plan to get and your future...but there is a positive side...these kind of things make you tough....anyways as I wish good bye to everyone going home...i sincerly hope that they have a blast in the 3 weeks that they spend sorrounded by the people they love...coz most of them know deep down in their heart that whatever they might say, whatever promises they might make to their family and to their friends, girlfriends and all others, this time is just not going to come back...atleast for the next 5-6 years of their life...and life is just not going to be the same then...people change, circumstances change and most of all you change...

i am drunk...

2005-12-09T21:22:00.000-08:00

i dont know why the **** i a mwriting this blog....i am totally drunjk...went to viveks house...had 5 pegs of rum,.. somnath is already tunn and asleap....and i am writing this stupid blog...bawa came and took a bottle of vodka..but i didnt feel like having any more so I came back.... i just cant get to sleep....what the fuck is wrong with me...anyways the rum was pretty good bacardi gold...and vivek made good chicken...so i am pretty relaxed now.........

exams over....well almost....

2005-12-09T16:45:00.001-08:00

Finally after a long time finished 2 courses...submitted the take home exam of eservices...had the accounting final exam today...submitted the slcm term paper..now only slcm final is left and its on 14th..so lets of time on my hand..its anyway an open book exam...so zyada padhai nahin karni hai...fir semester khatam...time kaisa pass hota hai kuch pata nahi chalta..jaise kal ki hi bat ho jab maine college station main kadam rakha ho...wo pehla din aj tak nahin bhulta...kitne ullu the ham saton...by the way sat log sath main gaye the delhi se..paris airport main ham sare per head 100 rs jama karke breakfast karna chah rahe the...jab convert kiya to realization hui ki usme ek bread ka piece bhi nahin aa raha tha...the flight from paris to houston was a very long one..mere bagal main ek frence nerd baitha tha...wo pata nahin programming kar kar ke khush hue ja raha tha...but air france ki airhostesses...woh....bhaiyon whenever you travel do it via airfrance..although the food is amazingly bad...they gave us cheese in dinner...and did not even give bread to go along with it...maybe the beauty of airhostesses in a flight is inversly propotional to the quality of food...hmmm..its possible that there product has to be a constant...research karni paregi....anyways....back to the point when i landed in houston i was tired, hungry and senti to the max...immigration ke bad jab bahara aya to barish ho rahi thi khub tez...aur bhi depressing ...upar se jo shuttle lene ani thi wo delay ho gayi....so rat ko 11 baje latakta patakta college station pahuncha...wahan jaise bher bakri ko charwaha dande se guide karta hai, waise hi desi logon ne ghar ka koi rata dikhaya..i stayed with a guy called raghu...phd mech...his mom had just visited and koi sabji bana ke gayi thi...us khane ka swad abhi nahin bhulta...fir uske bad ghar dhunda...jaise grahasti basti hai...waise ham charon ki ( main and mere 3 roommates, karandeep singh, somnath das and amitoj arya) ki duniya basi...immediately after moving i went to houston...wahan pe petrol pump jo banda kam karta tha pakistani tha...usse bat hui...pata chala ki 15 sal se it industry main techie ka kam kar raha hai...rat ko gas station main family ko support karne ke liye kam karta hai..sun ke phat gayi thi meri....anyways all of this story is not realy relevent just dimag main aa rahi hai to bol diya...anyways the point is wo din tha...and aj ka din hai...time passes by so quickly...initially i used to hate us...but dheere dheere mujhe samajh aa raha hai ki despite loneliness why people dont want to go back...there is something in this country...maybe its that life is comfortable, maybe its the money...maybe its the respect that your work gets that makes people to stay back...as manan wrote if you really want to study and learn something u should come to america...life main pehli bar main dil se padhai karta hun..isliye kyunki mera seekhne ka man karta hai...not because of marks...and beleieve me thats quite a shift...u see people really caring about what they do...and society is so free...gives the opportunity to a person to grow...despite the racial discrimination that happens sometimes people respect you for your work....and thats really different from India....in the class that i am a teaching assistant for there are 65 year old women who have come to do their undergraduation...and thats quite a sight...agar india main aisa hota to sab unpe hanste but yahan pe students treat them as equal..they are here coz they want to learn...and infact that is what education should be about...what do u really gain by marks if you dont really understand any aspect of the subject....main jitna bhi crib karun but us is definitely a good place to study...and sare bhai log agar mba karna chahte ho to try for some country abroad....the experience is worth it...its tough but u get the real education not only in terms of school but in terms of life...and i have learned that is the most important thing...
anyways aj exam khatam hue hain 75% so relax kar raha hun...ek aur chiz ho gayi hai...mujhe ab neend nahin ati...i am turning into an insomniac.....anyways....abhi jata hun..pasta banaya hai...khaunga....

exams over....well almost....

2005-12-09T16:45:00.000-08:00

nothing much

2005-12-05T18:53:00.000-08:00

nothing much...

Nice Quote...

2005-12-02T20:26:00.000-08:00

Just after writing the previous post was discussing with Karan a little bit about life...dont feel like studying anymore...will do it tomorrow....he told me a beautiful quote...think about it...
" Success converts man into a hero for strangers, and a stranger for friends"

Dont believe such a success is worth it...when u dont have anyone to share it with...time passes by and people keep on forgetting that you ever even existed...u dont even remain human any more...just live to meet the expectations people have for you and those that you have set for yourselves...

life as usual...

2005-12-02T20:06:00.000-08:00

by chance i read parags blog today...ullu ka patha hai wo...kabhi blog shuru karta hai kabhi band and kabhi bhi batata nahin hai...ab uske blog pe permanently nazar rakhunga padhne ke liye...waise pata nahin apne ap ko kyun underestimate karta rahta hai...stud hai wo pata nahin samjhta kyun nahin...han dhyan se padh mehre tujhe hi suna raha hun...yahan pe teri photo dekh ke log kehte hain ki movie star lagta hai...foru hai...pata nahin tu hi apna potential realize kyun nahin karta...bombay main waise masti mario shadi main...and apne blog pe mere bare main galatphami mat failaya kar kutte...log samjhenge ghissu hai sala..chal bahut bhashan ho gaya parag ko...well abhi zyada time nahin hai blog likhne ka..meri phati padi hai...chicago se ake socha tha rip ke bare main likhunga...bari hi adventourous trip thi but abhi time nahin mil raha...9 th ke bad likhunga tab tak bara busy hun..finally eservices ka project submit ho gaya...thik thak hi hua...nothing special...software life cycle management ka research paper likha...bakwas hai...dce ki adat gayi nahin almost sara tape dia tha but prof ne dekha to kehti ki citation do...ab nanga nahaega kya nichorega kya..firse pura paper likha...software project failure pe...main jisse word pe sahi se kam nahin hota usne software project failure pe paper likha hai...ab soch hi lo ki kaisa hoga...ghatiya hai...kisis se check karwaonga...aur kya hua...hmmm...9 ko accounting ka paper hai...barabad kar diya hai is subject ne...itna wahiyad ki kya bataon 15 min padta hun so jata hun...here goes investment banking as a future career option...talked to sameer after a long time..malaysia main masti mar raha hoga abhi...kuch salah di maine use jo wo hopefully implement karega chinki desh main...baki abhi 150 paper mil gaye check karne ko wo bhi 9th ko dene hain to wo kar raha hun...waise checking bhi kay bas no of pages ginke dil main jo ata hai no de deta hun...eservices ka take home exam mil gaya hai ..wo bhi 9 ko hai...6 question ajib se...shoot...bilkul barabadi ke din aa gaye hain..jaldi se sem khatam hon...and free houn...mujhe kam karna chahiye aur main blogging kar raha hun..waise abhi neend aa rahi hai so hi jata hun...10 baj gaye...10 baje sota hun..delhi main aise hi karta tha...purane time ki yad aa jayegi...chalo bhaiyon tata...shaba kher...

a long time...

2005-11-24T15:48:00.000-08:00

Well i am back again after a week maybe...so my blog is not a secret any more..i dont know how the hell parag read my blog after such a long time....chalo anyway my senti phase is alomost over so ki farak painda hai...chado guys...pharo blog...well i wanted to write an entry every day but after the last post one thing or the other happened so I couldnt write anything...right now i am near chicago...exactly in urbana champaign...more precisely in champaign...as urbana and chamapign are twin cities..i didnt know that before...so am at My sis friends place....finally got connected to internet after a long time...john ( my sis's friend) has gone to walmart to get some stuff...its thanksgiving today so most of the restraunats are closed..another friend gitesh is going to make chicken biryani...anyways back to the pont...well in the last post i mentioned that I have to work on my eservices project...so that night I , anish,naren and prasad went at 9 to the school and started work on the project...we worked for a couple of hours till 2 am...after that we felt really really hungry...we chucked the work..then decided to go out for a snack...finally after much deliberation we decided to go to Denny,s Diner...its a restaurant open 24 hours...i was more inclined to go to mcdonalds..as they have 1$ burger...as usual i remain a kanjus..but since naren and anish are veggies we decided to go to denny's...first of all the place was totally packed...sort of like kumzum at night indelhi...since it was saturday night most of the people were coming there aftre the clubs closed...we had a seat..now the good thing about dennys u get unlimited hot chocolate for 1.5$ ....free ka sunke obviously order to karna hi tha..so khana order karne se pehle 2 kap pi gaya...then believe it or not guys..i ordered an omelette for 10$....suna tha vinashkale vipret buddhi...sachme 450 rupees ka omeltte 3 ando ka rat to 4 baje...us waqt to bare maze se khaya but bad main laga ki ye kya kar diya...ajkal paiso pe control hi nahin hai jaise ate hain usse jaldi chale jate hain...so then 4.30 kha pi ke firse school pahunce...neend aa rahi thi...kam karne ka man nahin kar raha tha...so shaadi.com pe prasad ka profile banaya...and uske liye ladkiyan dekh rahe the..believe me doston mast time pass hai...5.30 tak ye kiya then uske bad ghar aa ke so gaya...sunday ko 1 baje so ke utha..socha kuch padai karunga...but man nahin kiya...amitoj ne maggi banayi...aram se wo khayi....uske bad 4 baje library ke liye nikla...karan ko maska laga ke usse 1 free ki coffee pi...pite pie library pahunha..and padhne baitha...worked on my term paper a little bit...then uske bad ghar aa gaya burger khate hue...also got the novel " the godfather returns" from the library...came back home then read a couple of pages..then again anish etc came and we went to the library...thought would work on accounting...but library main baith ke...garam masala dekhne lag gaye...again no output...came back at 10...and i slept like a baby...coz i had office hours from 8 am to 5pm on monday...woke up on monday...reached office at 8.30...sat there...and kismat kharab bare log aa rahe the...so bilkul chat karne ka time ahin mila bas thodi der manan, shashi, suvir,harman se conferance ki...5 baje ke bad had a class attended the class...went till 7...came back home...then since had a flight on tuesday, had to do the laundry...so uske bad aa ke kapde dhoye...11 baj gaye...fir ghar pe sab masti kar rahe the...time pass karte karte 12 baj gaye...slept..then on tuesday wke up at 8...had boked the ground shuttle for 9 am ...so got ready before that...made some sandwiches...packed it...the shuttle came at 9.30 and i reached houston airport at 11...my flight to chicago was at 3.40...so bas wait karta raha and novel padta raha...flight hui normal hi thi...reached chicago at 6.20...behen was waiting for me...john had a team meeting so he cam a little bit late...moreover there was a lot of traffic...so started from chicago at 7.30 for champaign...chicago is really really cold...no wonder its called the windy city..itni tez hawa ki insan jam jaye...anyways started at 7.30 reached champaign at 11...uske bad bas so gaya...kuch khas kiya nahin...then on wed..subah utha..john ka office tha so ham dono ghar pe hi the...subah breakfast kiya...then bas hum dono time pass kar rahe the..john has a beautiful home...uske ghar ke piche pond hai...so we went for a walk..but it was too goddamned cold..so came inside withing 10 min..then just maine thodi wine pi...behen and main novel padhte rahe...john came at 3...then we all went to the mall for shopping...was thinking of buting a jacket...mall ghuma...sis bought me a jacket..just time pass kiya...had some chinese food..and we came back...ghar pe then started watching some mallu( malyali movie)...john is from kerela..so the whole time he was translating the movie...it was some psycho thriller about a split personality woman....some haveli and stuff...thodu der dekhi and then I started reading my book..finished the book at 3..we had to wake up at 4.30 in the morning and leave for chicago in order to pick up johns friend who was coming from atlanta...but woke up at 6...started at 6.30...and reached chicago at 8.30...his friend had to wait for 2 hours...uske bad wapas aye...had plans of going camping in kankooki ...i think i got the name right national park...but the park was closed...and it was so cold i cant describe...the wind froze my face...but the woods and river were really beautiful...again came back at around 11.30....some more friends came from cleveland...and we had lunch..then could go out because again it was too cold..so stayed at home and played dumbsharades for 3 hours...fir net try kiya...luck se signal catch kar gaya...and now i am writing this blog...ab kal downtown chicago ghumne jaenge...ab bahut lamba post ho gaya jata hun...tata...

19/11/2005

2005-11-19T18:31:00.000-08:00

chalo aj ki dincharya bataen ki kiya kya...well subah utha at 8....then chai banai...pata nahin hamesha chai zyada kyun ban jati hai...aj firse waste ho gayi...karan hamesha mazak udata hai mera is bat pe...then kya kiya lets see...uske bad started working on the slcm term paper..its not going so well....and my hand tires easily..i dont have a mouse so its difficult working on my laptop...so i think i am going to buy a mouse on thanksgiving...then somu made eggroll for breakfast...wo khaya it was nice...uske bad continued to work on my slcm term paper...dimag kharab ho gaya...then what ...hmmmm....han there was free thanksgiving dinner at the methodist church..so went there..the food was good..had turkey, stuffing and apple pie..acha hai pet bhar gaya...now wont have to cook anything at home today...then they had a small skit about the story behind thanksgiving... it was also okay...uske bad karn and I went for a walk...he wanted to go to texas avenue starbucks for a coffee but it was too far off...and main alsi...so maine mana kar diya...java cafe bhi band tha...so laut ke buddhu ghar ko aa gaye..abhi aj night marna padega...eservices ka pura project banana hai...atleast 5-6 hrs lag jayenge usme...so aj ki rat to gayi...what else..han aj india main sunday hoga...today is cat...so everybody must be working hard on that...most of my friends are giving it this time and i am sure many are going to get through...they deserved it even the last year...acha hai sab mba kar len atleast future main naukri dene wala to koi hoga...and aur kya apna time yad ata hai cat ka..janakpuri main center tha...mom chorne gayin thi...english thik hua tha mera 50 attempt kiye the...but as usual quant main lag gayi thi..bara bakwas hua tha..ghar aya fir maine manhar ke sath answer discuss kiye...ham dono ke almost sare answer match ho gaye the...main khush ho gaya tha...but pata chala hum dono ke answer hi wrong the...hehehe...but english ki wajah se percentile thik aa gayi thi so indore se call aa gayi...indore ka interview ek aur mazak tha zindagi ka...merse pata nahin kya kya pucha tha...vice president uski responsibility etc etc ...le li thi bilkul achi tarike se...pehli list main nahin hua tha...second list main pata nahin kaise ho gaya...fir wohi dilemna...iim chor ke aaa to gaya...kabhi sahi decision lagta hai kabhi galat ...samajh nahin ata...but ab samajhne ka waqt bhi nahin hai...it is the path i have chosen...and this is what i have to live with...and i have to pay the price for the life i have chosen....

18/11/2005

2005-11-18T21:10:00.000-08:00

Today was a pretty routine day...surprisingly I woke up at 8 today...that was quite a change...then i went to the school...i had to get a nenvelope to post the thank you letter to KPMG speakers...so went to school and did that...then a problem is coming up..i still havent received my original 7th and 8th sem marksheets from DCE...so i have to get them asap...they are not accepting my provisional ones..i dont know wo sab kaise hoga...dce main to you cannot do anything...jab unka man karega tabhi denge and I cant do anything about it...just have to tell papa to go to college a couple of times...and i have to meet the program coordinator before the 12th day of spring sem otherwise she is going to block me...and my degree plan will not be approved...another thing then came home..chatted with suvir for around 2 hours..just random stuff nothing specific....after that went to attend the accenture seminar...it was okay...nothing too great...then went to the library to meet up with anish...worked on the eservices project a little bit...actually he was working a lot I was just giving fundas...after that came home..then went to aggie night..played some pool...won game lost the other one..had some pizza and now i am back..still lot of work to do...will try to do it tomorrow....its friday night...time to sleep....yipee....

17/11/2005

2005-11-17T19:59:00.000-08:00

Hey...well lets see what happened today...as usual i woke up late..well in my apartment i am the person who sleeps the earliest and wakes up the last...i usually try to wake up at 6 in the morning...i have an alarm clock, i set up an alarm in my mobile...and i tell behen to wake me up every day by calling ...despit eall of these things i dont wake up before 9...every day i am getting up late.. i need to work on that.... need to get up earlier... chalo will try tomorrow...kal waise bhi subah jaldi uthna hai...although i dont have any office hours tomorrow but have to go to school...have to get an envelope and send the thank you letters to the kpmg people...this is urgent...and what else happened today...just attended the slcm class...as usual was pretty boring...i was thinking wrong about my term paper...i cant copy and paste like i used to in india...so the paper i have written is basically crap...usko pura modify karna parega...other wise i am going to get a f in the course...abhi to this course has already screwed me...A ana to bara mushkil lag raha hai..b aya to mera gpa screwed hai for life...everyone is going to get a 4.0..and mera kam hoga...anyway i need to focus on other things except marks..i have to remember that is the sole reason I came to US....rather than marks I have to try to focus on my education...otherwise theres no use...us ana bekar ho jayega if I am not able to change my style of thinking...and basically develop myself as a person....i have to realise that marks are not the end of the world...there are other things...hope i realise that in the future..and i really hope that i am able realise what I realy want in life....this is possibly the most important thing...i have to realise what my heart wants...truly...and the day i realise that I know i am going to be happy...a good news...mom and dad got the us visa...achi bat hai bari khushi hui...hopefully will meet them in feb...they really deserve the break..they have worked so hard for us....and they have suffered so much in life...i feel it is my first duty to give them all the comforts i can...we both will try to give them the best time we can in feb...another thing happened today..dont know how but Dr. Anderson selected me for the IT consulting course..will be working with 4 others on a Booz Allen Hamilton project...that should be really hectic...the next sem is going to be hard...but i feel that this course is going to be a good learning experience...and i will actually work on something constructive for a change...anyways bas ghar aa ke chole banaye hain....thats it and chawal..and listening to the audios I recorded in wimpys delhi...aur kuch nahin hua khas bas...aj phn off ho gaya tha to behen ko tension ho gayi...main uska phn pick nahin kar paya...bar bar phn aa rahe the...fir mujhe bhi tension ho gayi...class ta kar raha tha us waqt...then koi unknown no aya and i thought ki india main kisi ko kuch ho gaya hai...but thankfully aisa kuch nahin tha...bas aise hi use thodi tension ho gayi thi...ab aur kya bataon...bas neend aa rahi hai..jata hun...good night neelu...

i am back part 2

2005-11-16T20:14:00.000-08:00

Well i am back once again to share my views with nobody but myself...the last post had lots of spelling mistakes so will try to be more careful this time..it has only been a few hours since my last post but my mood has totally changed...after my office hours well i went back to school..the first thing masters lounge finally got some packets of dairy creamer...so after a long time i had some good coffee instead of the black one I usually have..so it was a change...then i had the e-services class which as usual was pretty boring...everybody was sleeping....joel and his group gave a presentation today....i found it to be good...we have our presentation on the monday after thanks giving and we havent even started work yet...so need to do that this weekend...after the class ...I, prasad, anish and naren decided to go some place...we went to an indian restaurant called spice bowl...the food was not that good but i am happy happy happy...i spent 10$ and man that was worth it...I had sukhe hue nan, gandi si chicken tikka masala, navratan korma, dal maharani and some thande se gulab jamun...i could have had a feast in india for 10$ but man that was worth it...it really cheered me up...lately i am becoming a spend thrift..i need to control my expenses..i had lunch at ag cafe today too..the chick fill burger...it was good...but bare paise kharch ho jate hain...i need to start saving some money...now i am back..karan and somu bhi bahar se khana kha ke aye...jins gaye the...karan ne wohi general taos chicken liya...mitha tha mujhe pasand nahin aya...but somu kuch mongolian chicken bacha ke laya hai...so bread ke sath gaya...aj kuch yada hi acha khana kha liya hai....man sari depression khallas...bas ab aram se panv faila ke sounga...kal zyada kam bhi nahin hai 2 ghante hi office main baithna hai...but sala software lifecycle management ne dimag kharab kiya hua hai...and i need to remind deepthi to register for me too...god...chalo anyways...jata hun..good night neelu...bbye...

I am back.

2005-11-16T15:01:00.000-08:00

Well i am back once gain...this is now going to be my private blog...4 months in the us have changed me a lot...i am sitting in my office thinking about the times gone by, the good times , the bad times...what i lost what i gained...dont know why...ajkal bara senti ho jata hun main...pata nahin kya ho gaya...i think the problem is that i have nobody to share my feelings with now...in india i used to talk a lot, bahut bakwas karta tha..about random stuff...with my friends...i had my gf...infact i realise now what i had in India...well atleast this is a good thing...i realised the value which never could have if I had stayed there...now i am all alone...just remembering the past...4 months have gone by since i first landed in texas...a lot of things have happened since then...its not like that i did not have fun..it was a really good experience..the education is really aewsome here...i have all the facilities...i am doing things that i could have never done back home...i go to jacuzzi every weekend, play in rec, go to clubs...and i visit places..one thing us is a very beautiful place..visited washington dc...its really good...going to chicago on tuesday...that should be fun...the only positive thing is my sis is here...although main usko paka deta hun bilkul...but still ...and i know ki wo pareshan ho jati hai...but that means a lot to her too...its like i feel i have only her...wo bhi depress ho jati hai kabhi kabhi...kuch bolti nahin hai...but still i know... i was planning to go to caribbean this winter...i tell everybody that i am not going because of the visa issue...but the reality is i just want to spend some time with her...anyways jata hun my office hours are over...have a class now...

preparation going on....

2005-06-16T07:32:00.000-07:00

nothing much going on in my life...had plans to go out with some of my friends but the visa documentation prepration recieved the first priority...so sent the whole afternoon working for it...first i had to prepare a fund flow statement which is essentially a plan of how am i going to finance my studies..this is done so as i dont have to speak much in front of the officer...i want to speak less coz first thing i might not understand what is he trying to say...the second reason is that i speak too fast...even when i speak by thinking the other person feels that main rata hua mal bak raha hun...so it is best for me that for once in my life is speak the minimum words that are possible...i created the fund flow plan it took around 2 hours...then i had to arrange my documents in a harmonium folder that i had purchased for 250 rs...seriously US jane ki tayari main hi nanga ho gaya hun...now i arranged my documents in a specific order... then i had to label the sub folders as well for easy visibility...this preparation is 2 much...now another twist in the tale..i have to hod the phone in one hand for the interview...so i have to practice holding the file in one hand, the phone in the other and still take out documents in a couple of seconds from the file.. so aj wohi practice karunga...
chalo gotta go...
neelabh...

Nothing New...

2005-06-15T02:49:00.000-07:00

Well nothing new has happened in the past few days…My mind is so preoccupied with the visa interview that is not able to think about anything else and frankly sometimes blogging seems just like a waste of time to me…all I can think about is the possible questons the angrez is going to ask me…the embassy. How the procedure works and stuff like that. I am just keeping my fingers crossed for the D day… I met parag , manhar and saurabh on Sunday…wanted to see a movie but we couldn’t manage to find tickets…today I went to college to get the provisional marksheet… well this is what I have to write right now…my mind is just not in blogging…..
Neelabh….

A really expensive day...

2005-06-10T23:39:00.000-07:00

Well yesterday was a really hectic day… It started like any other day in my life…woke up at 8 , read the newspaper for 1 hour, surfed the net and the usual stuff. Then my friend Manish came to my house…he had to prepare his resume …He is searching for a job kyunki ghar main uske sare kisse pata lag gaye hain…so went to a cyber café to prepare his resume…Then came back home to prepare my financial documents…and then is when the problem started…there is a thing called sevis fees that we have to pay on the I20 issued by a university, and the fees is to be paid to the department of homeland security in the US….I had initially paid the fees to Carnegie mellon university and then I had the fees transferred to Texas A & M University…Now , I received an Email from Washington that my fees had been transferred however when I checked the status on their website there was no indication of the transfer….Fir meri phatni shuru hui…then I called up my sister up…She was in Boston and was going to Washington D.C, so I told her to enquire about this…She called up their customer care and she told me no transfer was done…but she told me to call up customer care also…Then I called US up…The phone was picked up by someone called Melanie….Boy uska kya accent tha…kuch samajh nahin aa raha tha….We talked for around half an hour and neither she could understand what I was saying and neither I could understand what she was trying to say…She took atleast 10 min to understand what my name was…sachme kitni bhi English movies dekh lo angezon ki bhasha samajh nahin ati…total call ka result nill and 100 rs lag gaye… dil pe aisi chot lagi ki kya bataon…fir maine socha ki apni behen ko hi bolta hun…who bhi adhi American ho gayi hai apni language main bat kare toh shayad unko samajh main aa jaye…fir I called my sister up once again…pehle toh usne mujhe bari dant mari ki mere mobile ke minutes waste karte rahta hai her incoming is not free from 9 am to 9 pm….then fir usne phone kiya dusre number pe…Now the other customer care number was not accepting calls from anyone in the US….So again I had to call US up….I gave a call to them and for 15 f*****g minutes they told me all about the I20, what to do, how to pay the fees and all the stupid stuff…wahan bill dekh dekh ke mera heart fail hue ja raha tha…Then after this ordeal they told me to wait for an executive to pick up the phone…estimated waiting time 5 min…dil pe ek aur ghav laga…but socha ki yar itne paise waste kar diye…toh thode aur sahi atleast kam to ho…They put on some boring classical music on the line…and I waited and waited and waited and waited …5 ke 10 min hue…10 ke 15…15 ke 20…wait line khatam hi na ho…bill badh badh ke 200 rupees pahunch gaye…heart attack se bachne ke liye maine asprin jibh ke niche rakhi…paise badhte gaye aur meri phattee gayi…finally 250 rupees ke bad unhone kaha sorry..line is busy you give a call someother time…itna gussa aya ki main kya bataon….laga ki wahin 1 bomb phod dun…fir apne ap ko sambhala…apni sis ko phone kiya….50 rupees lage aur do gali sunee…fir usne pata kiya aur kaha that I have to pay the fees again to prevent any complication….$ 100 firse yani 4500 rs …fir maine rote rote 100$ jama kiye…moral of the story…govt ko fees dete hue kabhi unpe bharosa mat karo …India toh India US wale bhi kat dete hain…another moral.. I am totally broke now…So agar kabhi ghumne jayen then everyone else has to pay for me… Bas ab jata hun….rona aa raha hai….
Neelabh…

Just Random Stuff...

2005-06-08T07:28:00.000-07:00

Well I am getting a little bit tired of describing all my friends… They are all wonderful people and it is such a huge list that it is getting boring and repetitive writing stuff like he is so intelligent, he is so smart and so on… I am running out of ideas so I am going to take up the topic later on… On the ending note I may as well describe one or two more persons so here it goes…

11. Miss Kanika Dalmiya ( alias K.D) : Well she is just one of the sweetest girls I have ever met… generally a girl having the looks, the brains and the personality that she has is expected to be vain and arrogant but K.D is one of those exceptions of nature which make it sure ki kalyug nahin chal raha hai… She is superbly intelligent ( infact she is the topper of the class), has a fantabulous personality and is still so modest… kanika is a very good graphologist and has interests in palmistry also… Most of the guys I know have had a crush on her at one point of the time or the other… Initially I was a bit afraid of her, I though that maybe she judged people a little bit too much but largely my fears were a manifestation of my stupidity…So now I can talk to her freely… Has joined Atrenta and has plans of doing her MBA….My advice to her,,, just stay the way you are….

Now, I am totally tired so I am going to discuss my other friends in the later posts…Now about my day…Went to college today to get the bonafide certificate…Came back at 2 and then went to watch the movie ‘D’ at odean…the movie was not that good just like any other mafia flick you have ever seen …However I have a keen interest in the mafia so I did not have such a bad time either..I don’t understand why I like mafia movies so much…Maybe it’s the pure , uncontrollable power associated with them…the total disregard for a power other than your own that attracts me…I had dreams of becoming a goonda once …. Infact I was on the right path until by some quirk of fate I ended up being a fatua… I almost failed in my nursery class when I told my teacher “ Sali agar tune zyada bakwas ki toh apne bhai ko bula dunga….tujhe goli mar dega !“ …. Then in the third class in my morning assembly I called a guy by some bad name which I am not going to mention…the point is that I had the potential to become if not a Dawood then atleast a local tapori….But pata nahin 4th class ke bad kya hua shayad mere talents ko badhawa nahin mila,,,so main padhai ki taraf chala gaya….afsos….Anyway I was talking about power…the lust for power is the most uncontrollable urge in man and it shapes most of the human psychology…remember when you were young you read super commando dhruva, nagraj and stuff like that and you dreamed of becoming a man of steel …moving faster than a bullet and so on…that was your subconscious yearning for power… then you grew up in your teens when you noticed girls…the lust took a different turn…you wanted to patao the most beautiful girl, be seen with her…and now it is about becoming the boss , becoming the manger and so on…so I believe a mans actions are primarily determined by the urge to move to a powerful position….to become a cut above his fellow man… pata nahin kya bakwas likhe ja raha hun…ab jata hun….have to prepare my financial documents for the visa interview….

Love…
Neelabh….

My friends 2...

2005-06-07T03:57:00.000-07:00

Well the list continues…. Am going to write about my five more friends…I wanted to publish the pictures of everyone also but I just cant seem to get the hang of publishing pictures on the blog . You see , I am not very tech savvy . I downloaded Hello software , but still couldn’t manage to make it work. So any of you out there, just tell me what needs to be done. Now coming back to the list…..

Mr. Harmandeep Singh ( alias haramani) : One of the slimmest surds you will ever meet in your life. Have you seen the poster of Zeher with Udita Goswami backless, well Harman backless could beat her any time… He also joined a gym for a month but the Gym owners requested him to leave for giving the ladies inferiority complex. Harman also has a tremendous amount of enthusiasm about which I learned the hard way on the trip to dharamshala. He is a very good programmer , is joining Infosys on 13th and hopefully will join flextronics in October. You have to see him teasing Manan to get the hang of how witty he really is.

Mr . Sameer Pradhan ( alias Sameer) : Now just don’t go by his face….His face oozes sharafat but we all know what lies beneth… Is joining UT Starcom in July and is the perfect guy for marketing. He is also extremely chilled out… Has plans of doing MBA in USA after 2 years… Also extremely witty….fears technical stuff as much as I do…an ultimate guy to go out with on booze parties but only when you are not paying.

Mr . Nishant Gupta ( alias : IEEE , nishoo) : He sat behind me in all the exams and sale ne kabhi bhi mujhe kuch nahin dikhaya… Was the general secretary of IEEE and is one of the best organizers DCE has ever seen… was very involved in all the college activities… Joined DCE to pursue B.E in Computer Engineering , left with Masters in IEEE… Is joining flextronics and wants to pursue an MBA in Human resources. Have a pact with him that he is going to get me a job in whatever organization he ends up being in…was our treasurer in our trip to dharamshala….and this guy has it in him to become a really good manager…We also have another understanding… He is going to take care of my amanat in Flextronics.

Mr. Suvir Garkel ( alias Suvir ): an ultimate stud… I make it a point to touch his feet every time we meet…. Is a bond in finance… manages his family’s brokerage firm part time… he has a very keen mind …. Converted IIM K and is waiting for IIM A …. Left IIM K and I really hope he clears his waiting for Ahemdabad. He has a very big heart with lots of empathy for people from the north east… he understands their travails and suffering very well and always works to improve their condition one person at a time… Wants to pursue a career in trading… Is joining Ipolicy as of now….

Mr. Shashi Prakash ( alias Shashi ) : Shashi ke bare main kya bolun… he is also an ultimate gapori…has converted IIM K but is not too keen to join it….has campus placement in infosys but is looking 4 a job that pays him 10 lakhs….is a really fun guy to hang out with… and has excellent logical and analytical skills…shashi ki kahaniyan hamesha bari mast hoti hain….is an avid quizzer and is very fond of sports…

Well this is what I have to write right now..blogging is really stressing you have to think a lot…lets see for how long I can continue…

Adios…. Neelabh….

My friends 1...

2005-06-06T20:31:00.000-07:00

Well in this post I am going to write about some of my friends who have dominated most of my years at DCE. The list is not comprehensive….it just contains some of the people with whom I interacted the most in college…. In every post I am going to write about 5 guys… and my description is not to be taken 2 seriously.

Mr. Manhar Aggarwal ( alias Manu in Home: pappu in college : also due to an error in passport has a new name Manhar Prem Aggarwal) : One of my very close friends in DCE. If in the last 4 years I have talked on the phone for around 10000 hours then of these 9000 hours have been spent talking to him. I have talked to him a lot and have discussed most of my theories and problems with him and throughout he has proved to be a wonderful friend. Has now joined Induslogic as a software engineer and today was his first day in office. PS : He has also promised to give me a treat worth Rs 1000 on receiving his first salary. Another thing about Manhar he is one of the most courageous people I have ever met, and although his daring instinct did not materialize into success this time and although he says that he is not going to look at anyone else I am sure that he is going to find someone worthy of him in the coming time.

Mr. Parag Mehra ( alias: mehra , cc , babli ) : Also one of my very good friends. He is a fundoo guy . Although he is one of the smartest and handsomest ( forgive my English ) guys in the class with girls just falling over him , the thing I don’t understand is why is he single till now….seriously in a couple of years this question is going to be discussed in Historys mysteries… anyways more about him ….he is a charmer who can convince anyone about anything…. He is sometimes unscrupulous ( sale ne apni project report hi hamein 100 rs main bechi)… joining Flextronics software systems this June … has a dream of doing MBA and I am dead sure next year I am going to see him in IIM A…along with his chusil girlfriend.

Mr. Saurabh Ohri ( alias Ohri ) : The ultimate Gapori of our class… His sources and his news are always different and sometimes even leave the Punjab Kesari stories behind. A total bindas and mast banda… with whom you can chat about anything and everything for atleast a couple of hours. Just joined Induslogic today and is going to be in an IIM or in London next year unless he decides to change his career path and become a gossip columnist. He is also a very good writer , I enjoy reading his blog regularly and eagerly await for his every post. Ohri , has other qualities also but time and decency permits me to write only this right now.

Mr. Tushar Ranka ( alias ranka , randa) : My Gre partner discussed most of my essays and GRE stuff with him on the phone…He is also an ultimate talker jo kisi se bhi gappe hank sakta hai….also one of the most knowledgeable guys I have ever met…he knows almost everything about everything… joining MS in Computer Science in UC, Santa Barbara. Hope to see him happily programming on the beaches of California. Also forgot to mention that he is the ultimate jugadu. If you want a deal maker then he is the guy you are looking for.

Mr. Manan Chandra : ( alias : Gandhi , chameli ) :Characteristics: One of the most chilled out guys I have ever met… is bande ko kabhi bhi kisi chiz ke bare main tension nahin hoti… iske sar pe bam bhi fat jayega tab bhi yeh hansta rahega… Second characteristic : he is a total satyawdi …. Never lies always tells the truth no matter what the consequences… he is a follower of Mahatma Gandhi and and also had posters of him in his rooms ( just kidding) …has started a blog http:// manazdiary.blogspot.com and believe me this blog is gonna rock… this post is too little to write everything about manan… he is very very intelligent…. Kabhi kabhi hyper ho jata hai but still very lovable…… is going to New York to pursue his masters in computer science…. And rumor has it that he plays the role of sita every year in Noida.’s Ramlila….manan is one of my very good friends and is a gem of a person , wish I had his ability to remain so cool under pressure.

The beginning...

2005-06-02T20:14:00.000-07:00

Well hi…just came back from the trip to dharamshala and finally decided to start my own blog. Well first of all there is no fixed agenda for this blog and there are no specific issues that I am going to discuss …this blog is just going to be about my experiences and my life after passing out from DCE and I am going to digress a lot…saying lot of things that come into my mind …. First dilemna what to name my blog…by popular demand I thought of calling it fatuababa , then decided against it. The second name thnx to suvir has been fatwa harami…this is also not suitable as my blog is going to be basically a public forum…waise lagta to nahin koi ayega and dekhna bhi hai ki kitne din blog likh sakta hun so lets see …. I can also name my blog fatharsaxena ( fatwa harami saxena) or anything…sabne 3 din mujhe galiyan de de ke yehi nam dimag main ghusa diye hain…but I wanted something decent ….then decided to name the blog with whatever next came to my mind…and hence decided on saxenaneelabh.....now first about leaving DCE…. Well DCE has been a really wonderful place…. I know I have been cursing the same place for the last 4 years…but as one tends to leave an institution he tends to take even the bad moments with a positive undertone…yeah there were some bad times and there were some good times…but overall the experience was awesome….i learned more about life in general , made some really good friends and generally had a blast…. the first 2 years of my life in dce were generally governed by studies and although some may be of the opinion that even my next 2 years were also dominated by the same I tend to disagree ( Ohri…sale main diwali pe millman grabel nahin padh raha tha …ye afffwah mujhe badnam karne ke liye falayi gayi hai) … first 2 sal yeah main bahut bara fatwa tha…but dheere dhire sudhar gaya….i don’t remember much about my early years in DCE coz all of the people hardly knew each other…so the memories of that times are hazy….the third year of my life was dominated by GRE….god…yad ata hai toh abhi bhi ghabrahat ho jati hai…Seriously I don’t know how I managed to tame that beast….and then recos ( batate hue bhi sharam ati hai ki reco ke liye kya kya kiya golu ke panv chuye)…between the time managed to land up a job in CSC…but third year ke bad toh total masti….The final year was really very fun… I moved on from smelling alcohol to drinking a dhakkan to drinking a peg and finally drinking a couple of pegs at a time….and the rest of the things are graduated to are censored… Really bhaiyon the final semester rocked and wish that the other sems would have been like that only….but life goes on and we must 2….but please please please keep in touch….we all share a bond…ham sabne sath main khub lagwai hai apni…..isse bara bond koi nahin ho sakta so touch main rahna…and sabko mera cake unke birthday pe zarur milega….well this is all I have to say right now…my writing skills are not that refined….so bear with me….about my future…bhagwan janta hai…20th june will seal my fate…lets see whether life takes me to Texas or IIM I……
Love…..neelabh….