the notebook...

I am in DC right now..just saw a movie called "the notebook"...watch the movie if u get a chance..it was released in 2004...never seen a more beautiful love story...not to be missed...i havenot been regular on the blogs was just lazing around...dont go away a lot is yet to come...

another post...

another day passed by quickly today...have my software life cycle final on the 14th..its an open book exam and have to read 16 research papers...man thats boring..the course is pure crap...it has no aim...for extra credit we have to read the 17th research paper and relate it to the laws of software evolution and the wonderful thing is that it is nowhere related to the laws...but since the paper was written by our professor herself it must be related in some i incomprehensible way that only her complex mind can imagine...man she loves the laws of software evolution...and leaves no chance to make us study it...and i simply hate those stupid laws because i cannot make sense from that...but i need the extra credit...coz in us my golden rule of passing exams has failed me...pages bharo content ki chinta mat karo...mid term main yahi soch ke question pe 10 page to likh diye but andar bakwas thi...socha ki shayad na padhe..waise bhi purani adaten jati kahan hai..but afsos usne das ke das page padhe underline kiya...and she gave me a wonderful b-....ab us b- ko correct karne ke liye firse wohi nasur tapak para hai...and once again i cannot understand any word of it...anyways i had a wonderful experience today...we have a masters student lounge jiske ander generally sab baith ke padhte hai...since many people were studying this after noon the school people surprised us...they sent a tray full of cookies and jars of cocia and apple cider coz they thought we might be hungry..and moreover the girl bringing this stuff was really beautiful...it felt pretty nice...there is one more rumor going around in the school..the undergraduate student workers (girls) in the mba program office have a bet going on between them...they are betting who sleeps with the maximum number of mba students in this semester and from what i heard the count has reached 6 by now...so all you mba aspirants out there now there is an extremely strong reason for doing an mba...i am thinking of transferring myself to the mba program to get such wonderful education... anyways came back in the evening...afzal came home...we planned to discuss the extra credit question but couldnt make the sense of it...afzal is from bangladesh...he did his bachelors from arizona and is doing his masters here...he is a pretty cool guy always relaxed...taking 5 courses this sem and plans to graduate in a year only...already received a job offer from deloitte 3 weeks ago...so finally we gave up...anyways parag ka blog padha..so remembered slcm ...beleive me this class is the classes in dce...infact its even worse...dce main to students sote the class main...but yahan to tichar hi so jati hai...bilkul golu style ki hai...in the beginning of semseter gave presentations to give to everybody....and when a person is giving a presentation she literally sleeps in the class...and snores too...apni hansi rokna bahut mushkil ho jata hai...in my class there is deepam...wo laptop pe baith ke preity zinta ki photo dekhta rahta hai ek ghanta... there is jeff who just like rina keeps on solving cross word puzzles..there is me who stares blankly at the wall muhn khol ke...man its pretty funny...anyways...gotta go gotta study the laws...long live MM Lehman...

not drunk any more...

Anyways after drinking too much that day I slept for a long long time...woke up at 11....then slept again at 2...woke up at 6...as exams are getting over u can feel the excitment in the air...especially in the desi population..there faces are glowing for the simple reason that they are going home...they are smiling , jumping and most of all shopping...everybody is shopping like crazy...during thanks giving most of them went to san marcos to shop..san marcos has a lot of factory outlets like the ones on radisson road..a line forms in front of the mall at 2 in the morning...every one goes crazy at that time...i know people who have shopeed for around 500$ just gifts...but no body minds...coz they are going home though only for a month... for a month they will be near their family, they will have good food and they will relax...when i was in India main bhi sochta tha why do they come to india to enjoy and sab itne khush kyn dikhte hain...us din manan se yahi bat kar raha tha...ab pata laga why everybody is so happy...they will relax for a month...and after that back to the grind...most of the people know this is the last time they are going to spend a month with there families..after that nobody can go home for atleast 2 years coz of the h1b processing...just imagine coming back in january...standing on the airport and knowing you wont see those faces for a long long time...something just dies within you...i used to think this is all crap...but the day I left India...the last time I turned back to look at my family smiling and crying at the same time I knew this is all true...it is the price you pay for the education you plan to get and your future...but there is a positive side...these kind of things make you tough....anyways as I wish good bye to everyone going home...i sincerly hope that they have a blast in the 3 weeks that they spend sorrounded by the people they love...coz most of them know deep down in their heart that whatever they might say, whatever promises they might make to their family and to their friends, girlfriends and all others, this time is just not going to come back...atleast for the next 5-6 years of their life...and life is just not going to be the same then...people change, circumstances change and most of all you change...

i am drunk...

i dont know why the **** i a mwriting this blog....i am totally drunjk...went to viveks house...had 5 pegs of rum,.. somnath is already tunn and asleap....and i am writing this stupid blog...bawa came and took a bottle of vodka..but i didnt feel like having any more so I came back.... i just cant get to sleep....what the fuck is wrong with me...anyways the rum was pretty good bacardi gold...and vivek made good chicken...so i am pretty relaxed now.........

exams over....well almost....

Finally after a long time finished 2 courses...submitted the take home exam of eservices...had the accounting final exam today...submitted the slcm term paper..now only slcm final is left and its on 14th..so lets of time on my hand..its anyway an open book exam...so zyada padhai nahin karni hai...fir semester khatam...time kaisa pass hota hai kuch pata nahi chalta..jaise kal ki hi bat ho jab maine college station main kadam rakha ho...wo pehla din aj tak nahin bhulta...kitne ullu the ham saton...by the way sat log sath main gaye the delhi se..paris airport main ham sare per head 100 rs jama karke breakfast karna chah rahe the...jab convert kiya to realization hui ki usme ek bread ka piece bhi nahin aa raha tha...the flight from paris to houston was a very long one..mere bagal main ek frence nerd baitha tha...wo pata nahin programming kar kar ke khush hue ja raha tha...but air france ki airhostesses...woh....bhaiyon whenever you travel do it via airfrance..although the food is amazingly bad...they gave us cheese in dinner...and did not even give bread to go along with it...maybe the beauty of airhostesses in a flight is inversly propotional to the quality of food...hmmm..its possible that there product has to be a constant...research karni paregi....anyways....back to the point when i landed in houston i was tired, hungry and senti to the max...immigration ke bad jab bahara aya to barish ho rahi thi khub tez...aur bhi depressing ...upar se jo shuttle lene ani thi wo delay ho gayi....so rat ko 11 baje latakta patakta college station pahuncha...wahan jaise bher bakri ko charwaha dande se guide karta hai, waise hi desi logon ne ghar ka koi rata dikhaya..i stayed with a guy called raghu...phd mech...his mom had just visited and koi sabji bana ke gayi thi...us khane ka swad abhi nahin bhulta...fir uske bad ghar dhunda...jaise grahasti basti hai...waise ham charon ki ( main and mere 3 roommates, karandeep singh, somnath das and amitoj arya) ki duniya basi...immediately after moving i went to houston...wahan pe petrol pump jo banda kam karta tha pakistani tha...usse bat hui...pata chala ki 15 sal se it industry main techie ka kam kar raha hai...rat ko gas station main family ko support karne ke liye kam karta hai..sun ke phat gayi thi meri....anyways all of this story is not realy relevent just dimag main aa rahi hai to bol diya...anyways the point is wo din tha...and aj ka din hai...time passes by so quickly...initially i used to hate us...but dheere dheere mujhe samajh aa raha hai ki despite loneliness why people dont want to go back...there is something in this country...maybe its that life is comfortable, maybe its the money...maybe its the respect that your work gets that makes people to stay back...as manan wrote if you really want to study and learn something u should come to america...life main pehli bar main dil se padhai karta hun..isliye kyunki mera seekhne ka man karta hai...not because of marks...and beleieve me thats quite a shift...u see people really caring about what they do...and society is so free...gives the opportunity to a person to grow...despite the racial discrimination that happens sometimes people respect you for your work....and thats really different from India....in the class that i am a teaching assistant for there are 65 year old women who have come to do their undergraduation...and thats quite a sight...agar india main aisa hota to sab unpe hanste but yahan pe students treat them as equal..they are here coz they want to learn...and infact that is what education should be about...what do u really gain by marks if you dont really understand any aspect of the subject....main jitna bhi crib karun but us is definitely a good place to study...and sare bhai log agar mba karna chahte ho to try for some country abroad....the experience is worth it...its tough but u get the real education not only in terms of school but in terms of life...and i have learned that is the most important thing...
anyways aj exam khatam hue hain 75% so relax kar raha hun...ek aur chiz ho gayi hai...mujhe ab neend nahin ati...i am turning into an insomniac.....anyways....abhi jata hun..pasta banaya hai...khaunga....

exams over....well almost....

Finally after a long time finished 2 courses...submitted the take home exam of eservices...had the accounting final exam today...submitted the slcm term paper..now only slcm final is left and its on 14th..so lets of time on my hand..its anyway an open book exam...so zyada padhai nahin karni hai...fir semester khatam...time kaisa pass hota hai kuch pata nahi chalta..jaise kal ki hi bat ho jab maine college station main kadam rakha ho...wo pehla din aj tak nahin bhulta...kitne ullu the ham saton...by the way sat log sath main gaye the delhi se..paris airport main ham sare per head 100 rs jama karke breakfast karna chah rahe the...jab convert kiya to realization hui ki usme ek bread ka piece bhi nahin aa raha tha...the flight from paris to houston was a very long one..mere bagal main ek frence nerd baitha tha...wo pata nahin programming kar kar ke khush hue ja raha tha...but air france ki airhostesses...woh....bhaiyon whenever you travel do it via airfrance..although the food is amazingly bad...they gave us cheese in dinner...and did not even give bread to go along with it...maybe the beauty of airhostesses in a flight is inversly propotional to the quality of food...hmmm..its possible that there product has to be a constant...research karni paregi....anyways....back to the point when i landed in houston i was tired, hungry and senti to the max...immigration ke bad jab bahara aya to barish ho rahi thi khub tez...aur bhi depressing ...upar se jo shuttle lene ani thi wo delay ho gayi....so rat ko 11 baje latakta patakta college station pahuncha...wahan jaise bher bakri ko charwaha dande se guide karta hai, waise hi desi logon ne ghar ka koi rata dikhaya..i stayed with a guy called raghu...phd mech...his mom had just visited and koi sabji bana ke gayi thi...us khane ka swad abhi nahin bhulta...fir uske bad ghar dhunda...jaise grahasti basti hai...waise ham charon ki ( main and mere 3 roommates, karandeep singh, somnath das and amitoj arya) ki duniya basi...immediately after moving i went to houston...wahan pe petrol pump jo banda kam karta tha pakistani tha...usse bat hui...pata chala ki 15 sal se it industry main techie ka kam kar raha hai...rat ko gas station main family ko support karne ke liye kam karta hai..sun ke phat gayi thi meri....anyways all of this story is not realy relevent just dimag main aa rahi hai to bol diya...anyways the point is wo din tha...and aj ka din hai...time passes by so quickly...initially i used to hate us...but dheere dheere mujhe samajh aa raha hai ki despite loneliness why people dont want to go back...there is something in this country...maybe its that life is comfortable, maybe its the money...maybe its the respect that your work gets that makes people to stay back...as manan wrote if you really want to study and learn something u should come to america...life main pehli bar main dil se padhai karta hun..isliye kyunki mera seekhne ka man karta hai...not because of marks...and beleieve me thats quite a shift...u see people really caring about what they do...and society is so free...gives the opportunity to a person to grow...despite the racial discrimination that happens sometimes people respect you for your work....and thats really different from India....in the class that i am a teaching assistant for there are 65 year old women who have come to do their undergraduation...and thats quite a sight...agar india main aisa hota to sab unpe hanste but yahan pe students treat them as equal..they are here coz they want to learn...and infact that is what education should be about...what do u really gain by marks if you dont really understand any aspect of the subject....main jitna bhi crib karun but us is definitely a good place to study...and sare bhai log agar mba karna chahte ho to try for some country abroad....the experience is worth it...its tough but u get the real education not only in terms of school but in terms of life...and i have learned that is the most important thing...
anyways aj exam khatam hue hain 75% so relax kar raha hun...ek aur chiz ho gayi hai...mujhe ab neend nahin ati...i am turning into an insomniac.....anyways....abhi jata hun..pasta banaya hai...khaunga....

nothing much

nothing much...

Nice Quote...

Just after writing the previous post was discussing with Karan a little bit about life...dont feel like studying anymore...will do it tomorrow....he told me a beautiful quote...think about it...
" Success converts man into a hero for strangers, and a stranger for friends"

Dont believe such a success is worth it...when u dont have anyone to share it with...time passes by and people keep on forgetting that you ever even existed...u dont even remain human any more...just live to meet the expectations people have for you and those that you have set for yourselves...

life as usual...

by chance i read parags blog today...ullu ka patha hai wo...kabhi blog shuru karta hai kabhi band and kabhi bhi batata nahin hai...ab uske blog pe permanently nazar rakhunga padhne ke liye...waise pata nahin apne ap ko kyun underestimate karta rahta hai...stud hai wo pata nahin samjhta kyun nahin...han dhyan se padh mehre tujhe hi suna raha hun...yahan pe teri photo dekh ke log kehte hain ki movie star lagta hai...foru hai...pata nahin tu hi apna potential realize kyun nahin karta...bombay main waise masti mario shadi main...and apne blog pe mere bare main galatphami mat failaya kar kutte...log samjhenge ghissu hai sala..chal bahut bhashan ho gaya parag ko...well abhi zyada time nahin hai blog likhne ka..meri phati padi hai...chicago se ake socha tha rip ke bare main likhunga...bari hi adventourous trip thi but abhi time nahin mil raha...9 th ke bad likhunga tab tak bara busy hun..finally eservices ka project submit ho gaya...thik thak hi hua...nothing special...software life cycle management ka research paper likha...bakwas hai...dce ki adat gayi nahin almost sara tape dia tha but prof ne dekha to kehti ki citation do...ab nanga nahaega kya nichorega kya..firse pura paper likha...software project failure pe...main jisse word pe sahi se kam nahin hota usne software project failure pe paper likha hai...ab soch hi lo ki kaisa hoga...ghatiya hai...kisis se check karwaonga...aur kya hua...hmmm...9 ko accounting ka paper hai...barabad kar diya hai is subject ne...itna wahiyad ki kya bataon 15 min padta hun so jata hun...here goes investment banking as a future career option...talked to sameer after a long time..malaysia main masti mar raha hoga abhi...kuch salah di maine use jo wo hopefully implement karega chinki desh main...baki abhi 150 paper mil gaye check karne ko wo bhi 9th ko dene hain to wo kar raha hun...waise checking bhi kay bas no of pages ginke dil main jo ata hai no de deta hun...eservices ka take home exam mil gaya hai ..wo bhi 9 ko hai...6 question ajib se...shoot...bilkul barabadi ke din aa gaye hain..jaldi se sem khatam hon...and free houn...mujhe kam karna chahiye aur main blogging kar raha hun..waise abhi neend aa rahi hai so hi jata hun...10 baj gaye...10 baje sota hun..delhi main aise hi karta tha...purane time ki yad aa jayegi...chalo bhaiyon tata...shaba kher...

a long time...

Well i am back again after a week maybe...so my blog is not a secret any more..i dont know how the hell parag read my blog after such a long time....chalo anyway my senti phase is alomost over so ki farak painda hai...chado guys...pharo blog...well i wanted to write an entry every day but after the last post one thing or the other happened so I couldnt write anything...right now i am near chicago...exactly in urbana champaign...more precisely in champaign...as urbana and chamapign are twin cities..i didnt know that before...so am at My sis friends place....finally got connected to internet after a long time...john ( my sis's friend) has gone to walmart to get some stuff...its thanksgiving today so most of the restraunats are closed..another friend gitesh is going to make chicken biryani...anyways back to the pont...well in the last post i mentioned that I have to work on my eservices project...so that night I , anish,naren and prasad went at 9 to the school and started work on the project...we worked for a couple of hours till 2 am...after that we felt really really hungry...we chucked the work..then decided to go out for a snack...finally after much deliberation we decided to go to Denny,s Diner...its a restaurant open 24 hours...i was more inclined to go to mcdonalds..as they have 1$ burger...as usual i remain a kanjus..but since naren and anish are veggies we decided to go to denny's...first of all the place was totally packed...sort of like kumzum at night indelhi...since it was saturday night most of the people were coming there aftre the clubs closed...we had a seat..now the good thing about dennys u get unlimited hot chocolate for 1.5$ ....free ka sunke obviously order to karna hi tha..so khana order karne se pehle 2 kap pi gaya...then believe it or not guys..i ordered an omelette for 10$....suna tha vinashkale vipret buddhi...sachme 450 rupees ka omeltte 3 ando ka rat to 4 baje...us waqt to bare maze se khaya but bad main laga ki ye kya kar diya...ajkal paiso pe control hi nahin hai jaise ate hain usse jaldi chale jate hain...so then 4.30 kha pi ke firse school pahunce...neend aa rahi thi...kam karne ka man nahin kar raha tha...so shaadi.com pe prasad ka profile banaya...and uske liye ladkiyan dekh rahe the..believe me doston mast time pass hai...5.30 tak ye kiya then uske bad ghar aa ke so gaya...sunday ko 1 baje so ke utha..socha kuch padai karunga...but man nahin kiya...amitoj ne maggi banayi...aram se wo khayi....uske bad 4 baje library ke liye nikla...karan ko maska laga ke usse 1 free ki coffee pi...pite pie library pahunha..and padhne baitha...worked on my term paper a little bit...then uske bad ghar aa gaya burger khate hue...also got the novel " the godfather returns" from the library...came back home then read a couple of pages..then again anish etc came and we went to the library...thought would work on accounting...but library main baith ke...garam masala dekhne lag gaye...again no output...came back at 10...and i slept like a baby...coz i had office hours from 8 am to 5pm on monday...woke up on monday...reached office at 8.30...sat there...and kismat kharab bare log aa rahe the...so bilkul chat karne ka time ahin mila bas thodi der manan, shashi, suvir,harman se conferance ki...5 baje ke bad had a class attended the class...went till 7...came back home...then since had a flight on tuesday, had to do the laundry...so uske bad aa ke kapde dhoye...11 baj gaye...fir ghar pe sab masti kar rahe the...time pass karte karte 12 baj gaye...slept..then on tuesday wke up at 8...had boked the ground shuttle for 9 am ...so got ready before that...made some sandwiches...packed it...the shuttle came at 9.30 and i reached houston airport at 11...my flight to chicago was at 3.40...so bas wait karta raha and novel padta raha...flight hui normal hi thi...reached chicago at 6.20...behen was waiting for me...john had a team meeting so he cam a little bit late...moreover there was a lot of traffic...so started from chicago at 7.30 for champaign...chicago is really really cold...no wonder its called the windy city..itni tez hawa ki insan jam jaye...anyways started at 7.30 reached champaign at 11...uske bad bas so gaya...kuch khas kiya nahin...then on wed..subah utha..john ka office tha so ham dono ghar pe hi the...subah breakfast kiya...then bas hum dono time pass kar rahe the..john has a beautiful home...uske ghar ke piche pond hai...so we went for a walk..but it was too goddamned cold..so came inside withing 10 min..then just maine thodi wine pi...behen and main novel padhte rahe...john came at 3...then we all went to the mall for shopping...was thinking of buting a jacket...mall ghuma...sis bought me a jacket..just time pass kiya...had some chinese food..and we came back...ghar pe then started watching some mallu( malyali movie)...john is from kerela..so the whole time he was translating the movie...it was some psycho thriller about a split personality woman....some haveli and stuff...thodu der dekhi and then I started reading my book..finished the book at 3..we had to wake up at 4.30 in the morning and leave for chicago in order to pick up johns friend who was coming from atlanta...but woke up at 6...started at 6.30...and reached chicago at 8.30...his friend had to wait for 2 hours...uske bad wapas aye...had plans of going camping in kankooki ...i think i got the name right national park...but the park was closed...and it was so cold i cant describe...the wind froze my face...but the woods and river were really beautiful...again came back at around 11.30....some more friends came from cleveland...and we had lunch..then could go out because again it was too cold..so stayed at home and played dumbsharades for 3 hours...fir net try kiya...luck se signal catch kar gaya...and now i am writing this blog...ab kal downtown chicago ghumne jaenge...ab bahut lamba post ho gaya jata hun...tata...